Deadline finished
Feb. 1st, 2003 12:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
angelophileFinally finished my deadline week. Saturday after the night before and how do I feel? Just sort of...bleh, not in a particularly good mood. I know I'm going to be irritable, even though I have nothing really to be irritable about. After a week of tiny amounts of sleep and constant work it's the usual comedown. No adrenaline just extreme tiredness.
The usual worries. Did I do everything right? Did I make any mistakes. Only a couple last month. Funny, the months when I make the most mistakes that -I- spot I seem to get away with. Last month just a couple and the clients complained. I can understand it and it gets me pissed off at myself even if it isn't my fault.
Just a symptom of my mood I suppose. I'm just immensely tired and headachey and not in the mood for being in any way cheerful. Came in last night and just collapsed. By seven I was tired. By about 8.30 I was just about ready to drop. Which I did. Barely the energy to email my girlfriend and of course this morning I've remembered her email was down so she probably won't have got it yesterday. Pissed off at myself and disappointed at this freak of nature that keeps us apart like this. One of those mornings where attempting to carry out a long distance relationship really grates.
I know things will be better when I see her online, or talk to her on the phone. They always are. She manages to make me smile by her very presence sometimes. Yeah, I'm a sap.
She constantly amazes me.
Wondering about going back to bed. It's noon now. So I've had about 12 or more hours sleep and been up two and still tired. Not so much physically as mentally.
I think I might get out, take myself off for a walk. It's what will cheer me up the best. Trouble is if I do that I run the risk of missing my girlfriend when she logs on. I don't know what's for the best. Look after my own state of mind or be here for her. Be simple if I could manage both.
I think a quick soak in the bath, then a walk. Then hopefully when I do return I'll be in a better mood.
I doubt anyone wants to know all this. Don't even know why I'm typing it.
Talk later.
The usual worries. Did I do everything right? Did I make any mistakes. Only a couple last month. Funny, the months when I make the most mistakes that -I- spot I seem to get away with. Last month just a couple and the clients complained. I can understand it and it gets me pissed off at myself even if it isn't my fault.
Just a symptom of my mood I suppose. I'm just immensely tired and headachey and not in the mood for being in any way cheerful. Came in last night and just collapsed. By seven I was tired. By about 8.30 I was just about ready to drop. Which I did. Barely the energy to email my girlfriend and of course this morning I've remembered her email was down so she probably won't have got it yesterday. Pissed off at myself and disappointed at this freak of nature that keeps us apart like this. One of those mornings where attempting to carry out a long distance relationship really grates.
I know things will be better when I see her online, or talk to her on the phone. They always are. She manages to make me smile by her very presence sometimes. Yeah, I'm a sap.
She constantly amazes me.
Wondering about going back to bed. It's noon now. So I've had about 12 or more hours sleep and been up two and still tired. Not so much physically as mentally.
I think I might get out, take myself off for a walk. It's what will cheer me up the best. Trouble is if I do that I run the risk of missing my girlfriend when she logs on. I don't know what's for the best. Look after my own state of mind or be here for her. Be simple if I could manage both.
I think a quick soak in the bath, then a walk. Then hopefully when I do return I'll be in a better mood.
I doubt anyone wants to know all this. Don't even know why I'm typing it.
Talk later.
