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Dec. 14th, 2003 08:31 pmThanks to those who've posted their condolences here over the last 24 hours, and those who've taken time out to talk to me. It means a lot. For those I haven't really talked to, yes, I am fine. I loss in the family is hard, yes, but for the last couple of years my gran's quality of life has deteriorated rapidly. She wasn't one who enjoyed life at the best of times and her mental welbeing had deteriorated steadily in that period.
All of her reasons for carrying on living had gone and she'd said on a number of occasions when she was more lucid she was ready to go. Without wanting to sound heartless about her death, I believe that she's at peace now, something she was denied in recent months. We were informed yesterday lunchtime that her health had deteriorated, which was something that had been expected for a while. My sister, mother and father and I all had the chance to see her before she died.
I sat by her bedside and held her hand and in the hour I was with her I saw her deteriorate from when I first arrived and all awareness went. A couple of hours later I was told that she had passed away. She just slowly stopped breathing. My mum and dad were with her at the time as she drifted peacefully away.
Not many of us get to go so comfortably or quietly.
So, to answer the number of people who've asked, yes, I am okay. I'm relieved that her passing was so peaceful and content that she now finally has some rest. She would have been 90 in a years time and had lived 20 years more than she ever wanted to. I trust wherever she is now she's content.
All of her reasons for carrying on living had gone and she'd said on a number of occasions when she was more lucid she was ready to go. Without wanting to sound heartless about her death, I believe that she's at peace now, something she was denied in recent months. We were informed yesterday lunchtime that her health had deteriorated, which was something that had been expected for a while. My sister, mother and father and I all had the chance to see her before she died.
I sat by her bedside and held her hand and in the hour I was with her I saw her deteriorate from when I first arrived and all awareness went. A couple of hours later I was told that she had passed away. She just slowly stopped breathing. My mum and dad were with her at the time as she drifted peacefully away.
Not many of us get to go so comfortably or quietly.
So, to answer the number of people who've asked, yes, I am okay. I'm relieved that her passing was so peaceful and content that she now finally has some rest. She would have been 90 in a years time and had lived 20 years more than she ever wanted to. I trust wherever she is now she's content.
