Whimper

I am so incredibly pissed off and unhappy.

Been trying to organise my holiday. Went in this morning to the travel agents to confirm the date and price they gave me on friday and...

No availablity.

Saturday it seems the last availability went leaving me stranded high and dry.

I'm so desperately unhappy about this. I'm sick of it. Really fucking sick of it. This holiday has been put off for months and was the first opportunity I'll have to meet my girl in the flesh. Yeah I know it's ridiculous the way I speak about her without having met her, but fuck off. I'm happy.

I'm sick of it right now though. Sick of this fucking job that restricts my times off to such a limited number of days. Sick of the fact that every plan I have goes to shit. Sick of not being able to -be- with the girl I love.

I'm so fucking angry with life just now.

And depressed. I don't know what to say to my girlfriend that won't crush her too. I just can't afford to make it all later in the year, when things start to get really expensive.

Arghhh!

Okay, I'll have calmed down at some point and will sort this but right now I just hate everything, so frustrated with life. How can I meet the one person I want to be with and not be able to BE with her.

Screw this.

Hrmph!

Okay, okay, panic over. I've calmed down a little now. A rethink and a browse online has convinced me that maybe there's another way to do this, booking the hotel and flight seperately for another date. I hate it when I get myself so bloody worked out but it still would be -NICE- if things were a lot simpler.

Grrrr.