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angelophile) wrote2003-03-20 09:10 am
angelophile) wrote2003-03-20 09:10 am
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Very negative mood this morning. Not exactly miserable but definitely very negative and particularly uncommunicative. Not really feeling very much like talking to people myself, which is unusual for me. If I rant its usually to people's faces.
Good news is XET is up so at least I have my place in the world again. Yes, particularly sad - I get used to familiar things. I want to be able to connect and understand the dynamics of the group, how people play off each other. Things are different nough on XTP to throw me and make me feel... detatched. Even though the -people- are the same, the fact that people are playing different characters, or treat each other in different ways... it throws me.
Feeling a bit out of things generally. Screwed up last night I think. This is why I don't deal with people well at the moment. Yes, I shouldn't talk to people at all. I talk, I listen and try to be there as a support for people, but my own mood is so unstable I ultimately either end up utterly destroying my own well being, or upsetting someone and then -that- destroys my sellbeing. Best not to deal with anyone at all.
War's started then. Still unsure about how I feel about it. I do believe the time comes where human nature dictates conflict is inevitable. Whether that time was now or not, I don't feel like I'm in a position to judge. You either trust people with more knowledge than you to make the decisions or you don't.
No I won't be out marching the streets for peace. I don't believe public opinion changes much ultimately because the public are ill informed hicks.
Yeah, definitely in a negative mood.
Do I believe that the war will cause more problems than it will solve? Yes. I'm scared for friends and worried about the effects it will have. I also believe Saddam -is- a danger and doesn't deserve to be in power. I don't swallow the view that Britain will blindly follow the US into the gulf simply to help US interests in oilfields. I might not trust Blair but I trust him enough that for him to go against public opinion and the wishes of his own party to stand strong on this issue he must know things that the rest of us don't.
Feeling dumb, I really shouldn;t venture opinions, makes me sound like a fucking moron.
Everything does at the moment.
I -really- hope these anti-depressants kick in soon. Can't stand feeling like this for much longer.
Bleh.
Good news is XET is up so at least I have my place in the world again. Yes, particularly sad - I get used to familiar things. I want to be able to connect and understand the dynamics of the group, how people play off each other. Things are different nough on XTP to throw me and make me feel... detatched. Even though the -people- are the same, the fact that people are playing different characters, or treat each other in different ways... it throws me.
Feeling a bit out of things generally. Screwed up last night I think. This is why I don't deal with people well at the moment. Yes, I shouldn't talk to people at all. I talk, I listen and try to be there as a support for people, but my own mood is so unstable I ultimately either end up utterly destroying my own well being, or upsetting someone and then -that- destroys my sellbeing. Best not to deal with anyone at all.
War's started then. Still unsure about how I feel about it. I do believe the time comes where human nature dictates conflict is inevitable. Whether that time was now or not, I don't feel like I'm in a position to judge. You either trust people with more knowledge than you to make the decisions or you don't.
No I won't be out marching the streets for peace. I don't believe public opinion changes much ultimately because the public are ill informed hicks.
Yeah, definitely in a negative mood.
Do I believe that the war will cause more problems than it will solve? Yes. I'm scared for friends and worried about the effects it will have. I also believe Saddam -is- a danger and doesn't deserve to be in power. I don't swallow the view that Britain will blindly follow the US into the gulf simply to help US interests in oilfields. I might not trust Blair but I trust him enough that for him to go against public opinion and the wishes of his own party to stand strong on this issue he must know things that the rest of us don't.
Feeling dumb, I really shouldn;t venture opinions, makes me sound like a fucking moron.
Everything does at the moment.
I -really- hope these anti-depressants kick in soon. Can't stand feeling like this for much longer.
Bleh.